"From Knowledge to Creation: Embracing My Journey of Purpose and Transformation"

As the weeks have turned into months, I've finally made a commitment. It's not just any commitment, but a promise to myself, a pledge to purpose. I'm ready to drive forward, to experiment, to grow, and to undergo constant transformation. My journey is about creation, about giving back to this world that has given me so much.

I've spent years accumulating knowledge, curating my lifely portfolio with precision, and it's been an exhilarating journey. But now, it's time to let go of the thrill of information gathering and embrace life fully. It's time to step into the personhood I've always envisioned for myself.

I've had visions throughout my life—visions of a spiritual teacher, one deeply connected to nature, someone who shares grace, transformation, and change with the natural world. My roots on my grandparents' farm run deep, and the memories of tending to plants and animals, of exploring my creativity in that nurturing environment, have been a driving force in my life.

When life got confusing, when emotions overwhelmed me, I sought solace in nature. I had conversations with our sheep, knew them by name, recognized their unique physical characteristics, the sound of their voices, and the essence of their personalities. Or I would head to the garden and engage in deep conversations with the plants. I imagined myself in long dresses, dancing in my own garden when I grew older—a place where I could create every aspect of my life, just as I did in childhood play, only now I wouldn't have to answer to anyone else's commands.

I envisioned a life akin to a TV show, where we learned the art of growth, where bird baths were transformed into potion-making stations, herbalism captured our imaginations, and magic filled our hearts. A piece of land with a breathtaking view, space for all my children and animals, and greenhouses where my dreams could take root.

Yet, as I grew older, societal norms led me down a different path. I went away to college, initially aspiring to become a doctor. But the rigid and clinical nature of the medical industry clashed with my dreamy and inspired soul. I shifted my major from biology to molecular and developmental biology, then to neuroscience, and added anthropology to add a touch of wonder and humanity to my studies.

After high school, I found myself in the damp, gray confines of Seattle. The lack of nature left me feeling dull and disconnected. It was in Boulder, Colorado, that I began to rediscover my spirit. And when the lockdowns hit, something remarkable happened—I started to truly bloom. An old friend introduced me to a meditation app, and once I learned how to sit with my own spirit, doors began to unlock. I started to remember myself, to play in the magic of my own mind.

I saw through the veneer of society and the conditioning of the educational system, which dictates what's important. My hermitage during the COVID-19 pandemic became a profound journey, fundamental to becoming the person I am today. I believed in the vastness of the universe and the individual's power to tap into this source. I began manifesting my life once again.

I dreamt of my soul mate and wished for a partner who would complement my journey. In November, I'll be heading to Thailand with my cutie boyfriend, Anthony. He taught me to believe in myself and put my knowledge into action. He saw the spirit within me and encouraged me to be a force of inspiration in the world, to become an entrepreneur.

This path allows me to recreate my life, just as I did as a child. I'm working towards a future as a curator of nature, as an herbal practitioner, as a spiritualist, as a writer, and as a generator of creativity. Today, I relaunch Elder Violet Curations, pledging to make my life a masterpiece and to be an herbal ally to my fellow naturalists. It's a journey of purpose, transformation, and living a life I've always known was waiting for me.

Caterpillar Kisses

"Caterpillars symbolize transformation and growth, teaching us patience and adaptability in our own journeys. Just as they undergo metamorphosis, we too can shed old beliefs and embrace renewal. Trust in divine timing, for when the moment is right, we too can spread our wings and soar."